hey im actually writing in my blog. first time since id just come to japan. and i cant be bothered to write it in japanese.... well mebs intermittently... ah i doubt it haha.
ive only just moved the keyboard to my vicinity so that im not stretchin my arms like they want to be detached from my general personage. interestingly, however, it feels like many thing are slowly detaching from my general personage, metaphorically... perhaps.
well, of course its taken some time, but finally i hve an idea of christmas presents. bit late u may say, but actually japan seems to be fairly lax about christmas in general so im not too worried =D and im glad i waited because i finally was enlightened that a present would mean more to someone if its taken more thought before getting it. unless its just a bad idea altogether haha. and if its personalised all the better! took one of me old mates to teach me that but ah well.
im about to embark on the 2nd stage of preperation to go and see Jae (gf) over in Korea. Well im not much a fan of packing so its means summit to me haha. i had hoped jae cud help me out as i packed, just over skype, but ah well, skype is bein awful, tho tbf, in general its pretty good generally as a company so as long as it doesnt become regularly awful i shant complain.
well, while i guess its normal for couple to argue, ive had some extremely interesting few weeks or it seems like almost 2 months. in short i guess i went a bit crazy. u know, when u dont see someone everyday, its almost certain that certain parts of ur connection will be lost. i knew this, but i still decided that it was too much lost. well jae was so busy, i mean, i should have seen this. maybe trying too hard itself is just a bad thing altogether. but i guess we've managed to get this far (tho im pretty sure there's gonna be huge talks over christmas in between all the gd bits =) )
reading my friends blog, she mentioned that some things that seem important now, may well be large regrets later in life when we look back. im not so sure. of course its possible, but i dont want to use that as an excuse to be lazy and just accept things as they come. the wise man makes more opportunities than he finds, said Bacon (i dunno where when or in which context tho =P )
i wonder if reading something that isnt for children/economics students could help me with my peace of mind.... id guess so haha harry potter (albeit in japanese) was a bad idea i reckon. its not really got the concepts i want to tlk about in it. ill set out to find a better book in january i think. maybe more of a classic.
did i mention all my classes are done? haha yey! i dunno how i feel about holiday yet tho, i tend to be bored. ill find something to do (such as read a good book) when i get back...
my korean classes are going well. as are my slightly more important japanese and economics classes (important in a way that is, well actually im not so sure. the economics are technically not so hard and neither are the japanese ones except the ones i took above the level i was assigned to...)
actually far too much of uni so far seems like a joke. ah well
ive got friends. i play table tennis. ive got a guitar. so i should be fairly happy right? hmmm well, i feel like im happy at times, but im thinking far too much. japanese tv is too poor/ununderstandable for me to watch it. so my mind only has itself to chew on, which is probably slightly unhealthy.
im pretty sure i can keep on going for ages. but basically i miss: england, my girlfriend's company, and a whole lot of everything else i had in london but have not here. and im sick of rules tryin to dictate me to do things ive always done all my life. it makes me not want to do these things. i mean i always was clean and put my litter in the bin. but tbh if they want me to seperate it and everything else, i wanna be paid. they ask u to open cardboard boxes when u put them in the recycling box... but ive worked in COMPANIES that hve machines for doin that kinda crap. so why cant the rubbish collecting... government or firm, i dunno, do it themselves?! ah that annoys me. and SUNNET... who pretty much are one of the worst service companies ive ever dealt with. they offer a 24 hour service yet dnt hve a 24hours phone line. they dont supply teh service theyve promised and seem to make up excuses about it, and tell us that we're partly to blame because of the sorts of websites we access. i mean. just. no, i hate them. well i told them that so its ok. but still
hmmm mega rant-o-blog
i think im finally runnin out of things to say....
i need some strength. i dunno where ill find it but i will. i was hoping my girlfriend would give me it. hah. well we'll see.
till then. i hvnt even started to cover 3months of japan, but since i left it til now, i guess thats just too bad. also. tomorrow. equals. haircut =D ^^ yeyyyyy! and apparently he even gives u a shave as part of he deal! wo0p! i shall look good when i see my gf again i decided... ^^ well, even more so since ill meet her parents (who mega-kindly are letting me stay at the house, even if i am a hairy foreigner =P ) ahh i know its gonna be fun!
probs ill make a post sometime when i get bck... till then, miss y'all x
please oh please may i not sound like an american when i get home... nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
=D
Thursday 23 December 2010
Friday 24 September 2010
Tuesday 7 September 2010
c-whizz
長い時間、ブログを書かなかった。
日本へ行く前はすることがいっぱいある・・・たとえば、今日は予防接種を受けなければならない・・・
でも、日本に留学するためのだから、仕方がないね
今日の天気はちょっとよくない・・・が、
私は毎日友達に会うことを楽しんでいるし、やっぱり10月1日を楽しみにしている （日本へ行って、ジェーちゃんに会いに行くので・・・）
アイルランドの国民性やアイルランド人とドイツ人のハーフの家族の問題についての、かなり気持ちの落ち込む本を読んだ。「Ｓｐｅｃｋｌｅｄ Ｐｅｏｐｌｅ」というのだ。そして、アレクサンドル・デュマ・ペールの「三銃士」も読んだ。三銃士という本は、すぐに大好きになった。本の中の登場人物の任侠な態度が好きだと思う。友達のお勧めの「三銃士」に似ている「Ｉｖａｎｈｏｅ」という本も読まないと・・・
「the time traveller's wife」を読んで始めて、セクシーだったが、あまり好きになれなかったので、やめて、「Lady Chatterley's lover」を読んでいる。
もう、最近をしていたことを全部説明したので、これ以上みんなの時間を取らない・・・ でも、これを書きたい・・・私のナンセンスを我慢できるし、愛しているガールフレンドが居る。 （10月、会いに行くので、楽しみにしている・・・)
またね ＝）
hah, there's not been much blogging for me for ages.
urgh, so much stuff to sort out before I go to Japan... yey an injection this afternoon, etc =D
well, worth it, to be fair, since I'll be studying in Japan =D
It's so grey today, and rainy, bah.
enjoying my time with friends and also looking forward to october 1st a lot ^^ (see Jae !! ^o^)
Ive read a book on Irish nationalism and a family which was half irish half german called the speckled people which was quite depressing, and the three musketeers which went straight to within one of my favourite books! Love the old chivalry.. think i may have to follow my friend's advice and read Ivanhoe too now =)
I have started on 'Lady Chatterley's lover', which i started after trying to read the time traveller's wife, which i found sexy, but hard to relate to haha.
anyway, im not gonna waste time explainin what ive been up to for ages, but I will say I have an amazing girlfriend, who regularly suffers a barrage of nonsense from me and who I love dearly. Ps, thats why I look forward to October since i'll see her again =) Also loads of thanks to my friends for puttin up with nonsense too haha
tara for now =)
kindly corrected by Κururi at lang-8 =)
日本へ行く前はすることがいっぱいある・・・たとえば、今日は予防接種を受けなければならない・・・
でも、日本に留学するためのだから、仕方がないね
今日の天気はちょっとよくない・・・が、
私は毎日友達に会うことを楽しんでいるし、やっぱり10月1日を楽しみにしている （日本へ行って、ジェーちゃんに会いに行くので・・・）
アイルランドの国民性やアイルランド人とドイツ人のハーフの家族の問題についての、かなり気持ちの落ち込む本を読んだ。「Ｓｐｅｃｋｌｅｄ Ｐｅｏｐｌｅ」というのだ。そして、アレクサンドル・デュマ・ペールの「三銃士」も読んだ。三銃士という本は、すぐに大好きになった。本の中の登場人物の任侠な態度が好きだと思う。友達のお勧めの「三銃士」に似ている「Ｉｖａｎｈｏｅ」という本も読まないと・・・
「the time traveller's wife」を読んで始めて、セクシーだったが、あまり好きになれなかったので、やめて、「Lady Chatterley's lover」を読んでいる。
もう、最近をしていたことを全部説明したので、これ以上みんなの時間を取らない・・・ でも、これを書きたい・・・私のナンセンスを我慢できるし、愛しているガールフレンドが居る。 （10月、会いに行くので、楽しみにしている・・・)
またね ＝）
hah, there's not been much blogging for me for ages.
urgh, so much stuff to sort out before I go to Japan... yey an injection this afternoon, etc =D
well, worth it, to be fair, since I'll be studying in Japan =D
It's so grey today, and rainy, bah.
enjoying my time with friends and also looking forward to october 1st a lot ^^ (see Jae !! ^o^)
Ive read a book on Irish nationalism and a family which was half irish half german called the speckled people which was quite depressing, and the three musketeers which went straight to within one of my favourite books! Love the old chivalry.. think i may have to follow my friend's advice and read Ivanhoe too now =)
I have started on 'Lady Chatterley's lover', which i started after trying to read the time traveller's wife, which i found sexy, but hard to relate to haha.
anyway, im not gonna waste time explainin what ive been up to for ages, but I will say I have an amazing girlfriend, who regularly suffers a barrage of nonsense from me and who I love dearly. Ps, thats why I look forward to October since i'll see her again =) Also loads of thanks to my friends for puttin up with nonsense too haha
tara for now =)
kindly corrected by Κururi at lang-8 =)
Saturday 28 August 2010
self-pitying and worthless
When people write I assume they tend to have a plan.
To be honest though, by the end of the plan I tend to find myself bored of the characters, and since I've already been through the story I can't be bothered to flesh it out.... I already know it deep down in me somewhere. Maybe that's the problem; I don't have the passion to tell everyone else. How would I even know if they appreciate it? I can't even have absolute proof that other's have a consciousness the same as my own. Well, I may take the fact that I can connect with certain people so strongly as potential evidence. Otherwise I suppose it would only be lust. Then again, I may just have a strange enjoyment out of making sacrifices for others, so I can't accept it as proof.
I have enjoyed my experience of love though. My heart jumping at the orange flash where I find out my love is talking to me, and the melting inside when they say they love me too, the contentedness of when we video chat. I'm afraid its long distance... but I feel that the rollercoaster that comes with this has been something of a blessing really. I feel stronger. My love has only increased.
Then there's the future. I just did some career tests to see what I should be. It made my skin crawl. Strictly speaking I realise that they are entirely inaccurate because a) I lie to myself and b) they tend to have such a large list of possibilities that it would be hard not to find something I fancied...
I did this to see if I could see a future for myself and girlfriend. Well, I haven’t ruled out a future with her, though I do feel she is sceptical. I try to stay positive, because I just feel like we can do it somehow... I share this information with her, and she responds positively though with a tough sense of realism which I tend to respect and eventually accept. She helps me in this way. I feel like I've grown a lot knowing her. I know I've not always been perfect, that she's disappointed in me at times (if not often), but I tell myself you can only learn through mistakes. I can only hope she sees that I am learning where I can, and that it’s for her.
Do I sound obsessed? I feel obsessed. Well, don't we all obsess?
I know people addicted to video games, drugs, reading, etc. When you are in a relationship with someone you see every day, I'm sure it's easy to balance your life. When I feel on edge at times, and tend to over-react and be emotional this balance comes at a loss of short term peace of mind. It will come I'm sure.
I forgot to mention though. I'll see my girlfriend soon. I'm very glad at this. In fact I feel that this writing becomes simply a self-pitying and worthless task. I remove myself from your presence; no doubt you have your own story to write. Life is its own story for everyone and we all direct ourselves but also each other. So all our lives are like one large collage, made from each of our own lives. It’s just too bad that we can never see it from that far away. The only pieces of art we see are small fragments of an overall picture. Whether it’s a mess or a masterpiece is all a matter of opinion. Well, that's art isn’t it? =）
To be honest though, by the end of the plan I tend to find myself bored of the characters, and since I've already been through the story I can't be bothered to flesh it out.... I already know it deep down in me somewhere. Maybe that's the problem; I don't have the passion to tell everyone else. How would I even know if they appreciate it? I can't even have absolute proof that other's have a consciousness the same as my own. Well, I may take the fact that I can connect with certain people so strongly as potential evidence. Otherwise I suppose it would only be lust. Then again, I may just have a strange enjoyment out of making sacrifices for others, so I can't accept it as proof.
I have enjoyed my experience of love though. My heart jumping at the orange flash where I find out my love is talking to me, and the melting inside when they say they love me too, the contentedness of when we video chat. I'm afraid its long distance... but I feel that the rollercoaster that comes with this has been something of a blessing really. I feel stronger. My love has only increased.
Then there's the future. I just did some career tests to see what I should be. It made my skin crawl. Strictly speaking I realise that they are entirely inaccurate because a) I lie to myself and b) they tend to have such a large list of possibilities that it would be hard not to find something I fancied...
I did this to see if I could see a future for myself and girlfriend. Well, I haven’t ruled out a future with her, though I do feel she is sceptical. I try to stay positive, because I just feel like we can do it somehow... I share this information with her, and she responds positively though with a tough sense of realism which I tend to respect and eventually accept. She helps me in this way. I feel like I've grown a lot knowing her. I know I've not always been perfect, that she's disappointed in me at times (if not often), but I tell myself you can only learn through mistakes. I can only hope she sees that I am learning where I can, and that it’s for her.
Do I sound obsessed? I feel obsessed. Well, don't we all obsess?
I know people addicted to video games, drugs, reading, etc. When you are in a relationship with someone you see every day, I'm sure it's easy to balance your life. When I feel on edge at times, and tend to over-react and be emotional this balance comes at a loss of short term peace of mind. It will come I'm sure.
I forgot to mention though. I'll see my girlfriend soon. I'm very glad at this. In fact I feel that this writing becomes simply a self-pitying and worthless task. I remove myself from your presence; no doubt you have your own story to write. Life is its own story for everyone and we all direct ourselves but also each other. So all our lives are like one large collage, made from each of our own lives. It’s just too bad that we can never see it from that far away. The only pieces of art we see are small fragments of an overall picture. Whether it’s a mess or a masterpiece is all a matter of opinion. Well, that's art isn’t it? =）
Friday 7 May 2010
box = mask = crap
So, it all came to a face off. The Lu twins against the world.
Issue 3: the entirety of the northern hemisphere is gone. All there is is an endless ocean. The titans didn't come... though if they had it may've been prettier. Vast, dull, once again the world seemed to be pulling me into a blanket of blankness, a warm bed surrounded by a shroud, so deep that stepping off the bed... you best just not, folly. Folly equals death.
John didn't quite happen to enjoy life, but death definitely disagreed with him. Death was nothing to do with the comic book, it was something to do with the gun being held against his head. He didn't know much about guns, but he was fairly sure the sound of the safety being taken off tended to precede the shot.
He put a box on his head. He felt safe. The box didn't stop the bullet.
Issue 3: the entirety of the northern hemisphere is gone. All there is is an endless ocean. The titans didn't come... though if they had it may've been prettier. Vast, dull, once again the world seemed to be pulling me into a blanket of blankness, a warm bed surrounded by a shroud, so deep that stepping off the bed... you best just not, folly. Folly equals death.
John didn't quite happen to enjoy life, but death definitely disagreed with him. Death was nothing to do with the comic book, it was something to do with the gun being held against his head. He didn't know much about guns, but he was fairly sure the sound of the safety being taken off tended to precede the shot.
He put a box on his head. He felt safe. The box didn't stop the bullet.
Friday 12 February 2010
Sunday 17 January 2010
２学期のおかしい始め
冬休み、地元に帰って、とても楽しかったが、大学の図書館で作らなければならなないレポートがあったので、１月２日にロンドンへ帰った。その１週間、２，３回友達の家で寝た。睡眠リズムがちょっと悪くなった。そして、レポートを全部書いて、日曜の晩から、水曜の晩まで、毎日よく飲んだ。木曜日に突然、金曜日にはテストがあることを思い出して、ちょっとあせった。木曜日の晩は、午後７時から、午前５時半ぐらいまで勉強した。テストは９時に受けなければならなかったので、２時間しか寝なかった。そして、テスト後、授業を受けてから、友達と一緒にパブとパーティーへ行った。最後にパーティーからうちへ帰って、午前４時に寝た。午後１２時に起きて、元気になった。今、来週の予習と先週の復習をしなければならないので、これで終わり、またね！
Kindly corrected by Yuuku and Tam(タム)
Thursday 7 January 2010
lyin next to ppl
it doesnt take much to go and lie down next to ur mate. in fact its lovely. hangin out, body entirely relaxed. btw, thts strictly referring to hanging out as a whole body, nowhere specific if u catch me drift.
i spent so much time with ppl, and 2nite i realised that its so much better than the internet for company.
how exciting.
so yeah, ive noticed that, esp. in the dark, relational senses seem to be heightened when hangin out with ur friends etc. perhaps the lack of distraction, guess thts wat prayin with ur eyes closed is all about too.
lyin next to ppl, half naked, naked, fully clothed, in hindsight i hardly distinguish except for specific reasoning ;P and some people you can just fall asleep next to, some you cant
well, its been on me mind, so thought id mention it. that nd me fluidity, inability to come on one side, maybe its practicalism or summit i dunno.
over nd out =/
i spent so much time with ppl, and 2nite i realised that its so much better than the internet for company.
how exciting.
so yeah, ive noticed that, esp. in the dark, relational senses seem to be heightened when hangin out with ur friends etc. perhaps the lack of distraction, guess thts wat prayin with ur eyes closed is all about too.
lyin next to ppl, half naked, naked, fully clothed, in hindsight i hardly distinguish except for specific reasoning ;P and some people you can just fall asleep next to, some you cant
well, its been on me mind, so thought id mention it. that nd me fluidity, inability to come on one side, maybe its practicalism or summit i dunno.
over nd out =/
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